Thursday, November 24, 2011
First of all my family. They've been there for me through everything I've gone through in my life. They've been supportive but also held me accountable for all my shit.
My parents have always been there to support me when I needed it. Financially, emtionally, spiritually, whatever I've needed they've given it to me in just the way I've needed it. They've bailed me out when they needed to; and let me deal with the consequences of my actions when I needed a lesson. My dad taught me my work ethic. I don't live it quite the way he does but from him I learned that I have a responsibility to work and work hard; even if I don't like my job. And if I don't like my job all I have to do is work hard and get a better one. From my mom I've learned unconditional love and support. She has such a heart for people in need. No matter what I've done she's loved and supported me and has always encouraged me to live the life I've always wanted.
My brothers have also always been amazing. Andrew is one of the coolest and most together guys I have ever met in my life. His passion for God and youth is inspiring to everyone who meets him and even though he's my little brother I want to be just like him when I grow up. And Eric is one of the coolest cats I know. He's been through more crap than me; again a lot of it is choices he's made but he's always got a positive attitude and he loves his boys like no father I've met before.
And my sister. I really don't know what I can say about that woman. She's so strong. She suffered the biggest lost I think anyone can suffer; losing a child. But her strength and faith never waivered. She runs her house and family like no other I've ever seen before. If you want to know how to live your life the right way; go have a chat with my big sister and learn from the master!
And my lil monster Alina. What an amazing adventure my life has been the past 9 years. 9 YEARS!!!!!! I can't believe it. It hasn't been perfect; I haven't been perfect. I wish she could be with me everyday and she should have been with me more days than she has been; but all I can do is look to the future. She's so smart and funny and beautiful and amazing and I'm gonna be in so much trouble in a few years when she's old enough for boys to start noticing her. I just pray she learns from me what she can on how to be a good person and a strong woman.
And what else is there. I have a job. I don't always love it; but it's a start towards the career I want and as much as I complain it's a lot of fun. I have a car. I have a place to live. I eat everyday. I can watch tv and surf the internet. I have a cell phone. I don't lack anything in my life except the extravagant, ridiculous things everyone dreams about. I have everything I need; which leads me to the biggest thing I am currently thankful for.
I have met the love of my life and I have never been happier! Dusti is the most amazing woman I've ever met in my entire life. So strong, smart, funny, witty, beautiful, sexy; everything anyone could ever want in a woman. And she's all mine! I wasn't expecting to meet anyone anytime soon. I had pretty much nothing and didn't want to get involved with anyone until I had my life figured out. But we met and she saw something in me and even though I was interested but kept trying to tell her I wasn't worth her time; she didn't give up on me. And now we're engaged and I have to admit that she was right. She's absolutley perfect for me in every way. She loves all the dorky things I do. We can talk for hours about serious things or ridiculous, silly things. We can sit and do nothing; just be close to each other. We can go out and look at antiques or old records or eat or do pretty much everything and have a good time. For whatever reason she loves me; and I will do everything I can to make sure that never changes.
Her family is amazing too. Her kids are amazing. Smart and beautiful. Such wonderful kids with so much potential. I feel priviliged to have the opportunity to have a part in raising them to be the man and woman they are capable of becoming. Her sisters are absolutely fabulous. Lacie is the ultimate family woman. She works hard but always seems to have time to do fun things with her two girls who are absoutely adorable. And she has an awesome husband (Lacie, not Dusti) who also loves Dr. Who and other fantastic BBC America shows and is an all around cool guy. Her sister Misty is also fabulous. I love going in to the spa and hanging out when she's around. So funny and sweet. Her whole family has made me feel welcome. I instantly felt accepted and loved.
So this has been a super long post, sorry about that. I just have so much to be thankful for this year! Thanks for sticking with me if you've read this far. I could go on and on about how fantastic my life has become the past year but I think I've bragged enough.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I know the holidays are tough times for some people; but look around, there's always something to be thankful for!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
My life wasn't the greatest. I was pretty much lost and doing nothing but working and drinking. And then she came along. I kept trying to tell her to stay away from me; that I wasn't worth getting to know cause she would just be disappointed. But thank God, she wouldn't listen to me. And now I am happy, truly happy, for the first time in as long as I can remember. I have hope for myself and my future. I have a plan for my life and couldn't be more excited about what the future holds for us.
She is absolutely perfect for me in every way. Things haven't been perfect; they never are. But they're better than I have ever imagined they could be for me.
And so we celebrated by doint two of the things we love best; eating way too much food and going to antique/thrift stores all day. And now we're gonna get all snuggly on the couch and watch the new Walking Dead in an hour. I love my life and I love my fantabulous and amazing fiance!!
Saturday, November 19, 2011
And apparently I have a drinking problem. I don't drink all the time; I don't crave alcohol and get all cranky or whatever if I don't drink. But when I am drinking, if I have lots of it available, I just don't stop. I seem to not have any self control. I should probably work on that.
My birthday is in two weeks. I'm gonna be thirty. I still don't know exactly how I feel about that. I still feel like I've wasted a lot of time just drifting and not working towards anything. But I've also never felt better about my life. I'm finally happy and have a plan. I suppose I just need to keep telling myself I'm really not that old and I still have plenty of time to fulfill the dreams I have for me and my family.
And that's about all for now I suppose. Excited for Thanksgiving next week. Get to see the fam and eat lots of fantastic food!
Saturday, November 5, 2011
In other news, Dusti and I went to Smokey Bones today. Aaaaaaaaaaand....eh. Food was decent, service was pretty horrible. Now we're back home and gonna spend the evening chillin and watching zombie movies!! Tomorrow is church and after that Dusti has somehow talked me in to going to the gym and working out with her and Misty; that's gonna be interesting.