Workin for a Livin. (Do I have to?)

So my "vacation" is almost over. The Dr. has cleared me to start using my left hand again. Said it will still hurt for awhile and it will be about 6 more weeks until it's fully healed; but I'm good to start working again. I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this. I gotta work, we is broke; and with the moving and wedding and everything coming up we need the monies. And I do kind of miss work and lots of the people there. However, I'm not entirely happy there. I feel (and have been told by some of the managers) that for the quality of work I do and the level of resonsibility I have, I'm underpaid. And I'm not getting enough hours. It's the type of job I want; just not in the place I want to be. And not working the past two and a half weeks has been pretty sweet! Not stressing about work, and being able to see Dusti and the kids more has been a lot of fun. It's really reaffirmed my feelings that I would like to be able to work from home; or at the very least, work at a job parttime and be at home more doing something I want to do.

If only I knew what that something was...

It's the weekend update

Everyone is still upstairs asleep or being quiet so I thought I'd take some time for a quick update.

Worked yesterday, it went alright I suppose. Was able to get more done than I did on Tuesday without feeling like I was gonna faint or my finger hurting too bad. however, having not been there for awhile and going back has made me realize how not very happy I am there. I have good opportunities there, I'm just not sure it'll be worth the hassle to get there.

We have the kids this weekend. Which means Tae Kwon Do class today. It's funny watching them do it. I'm not really sure if martial arts is gonna be a big thing for any of them; but they seem to enjoy it and are learning some valuable stuff.

We watched The Last Mimzy last night. What a weird movie! I don't quite get the point it wants to make. I understand the whole, "technology and work are tearing families apart and isolating everyone"; but that movie has a weird way of trying to prove that point. Have you seen it? Does is make sense to you?

Tomorrow is Easter for us with Dusti's family. Eggs have been filled and I'm sure it's gonna be a good time. Lots of food and drink, and Jared and I will sit around talking about Dr. Who! (Maybe I should wear my suspenders and bow tie and bring my sonic screwdriver!)

I go back to the Dr. on Tuesday. Hopefully he will tell me I can go back to work. Until then, I only have two days again next week. I'm gonna try to be more productive this week than the last two!

Peaceoutside, I'm off like a prom dress!

So, that's what I did last Monday. Knives are sharp kids; make sure you're paying attention when you are using one!

I figured since I'm obviously not gonna be working for a bit; I'd take a minute to post my annual update. Lots of excitement happening right now!

We're moving! We bought a house! It's big and old and pretty and there's a huge yard for playing and bonfires and parties and gardening. Closing is on April 30th, consider yourself invited over for a housewarming party! We're pretty excited about this. It's a place that will be ours and we can do what we want with. It's an old house, built in 1915 but it's only had one owner (well, the grandson of the people who had it built owns lives there now but it's been in the family the whole time.) It's been kept up beautifully. Tons of oak trim everywhere, the dining room is pretty fantastic looking. There will be lots of pictures posted once we get in and start getting settled.

October is coming! We've kind of stalled on wedding planning since we started house hunting but we'll be getting back into it full swing now I'm sure. We have the location and caterer decided but that's about it. Dusti is trying to find the right dress and I'm trying to convince myself that I will enjoy being all dressed up and fancy!

Work is...work. Lots of frustrations, but I think there's some good potential for me there. I've also got my wheels spinning on some other ideas; and still holding out for my goal as a professional lottery winner or internet celebrity!

The vicodin is starting to kick in, and typing without a middle finger is kind of hard so I think that's all for now. Maybe I'll be back soon, gonna try to keep up on this blog thingy. I have some plans on what I would like to do with this thing.

Peaceoutside, I'm off like a prom dress.

I'm being creative again!

So, Dusti has been doing a lot of photo shoots lately. Which means she has lots of pictures of her sitting on our computer. I got the idea a few days ago to write a snippet of a story for some of them. This is the first one I did. Hopefully the inspiration for more comes soon!

The Dealer

She dealt the cards with a barely concealed fury. Each one flew off the top of the deck like it was shot out of a gun. It had been five days and her anger had still not subsided. She took a deep breath to calm herself; she had to focus on work. As the hours went by she slowly began to work out a plan. She smiled; an evil, vindictive smile. She would have her revenge. The house always wins!

Obligatory Thanksgiving post

So too much food has been eaten. Just enough liquor has been drunk. And now I'm home, ready for bed and waitin for Dusti who is out with some friends. So I suppose I have some time to write out the Thanksgiving post everyone with a blog is obligated to write. And I do have plenty to be thankful for. My life hasn't been the best since highschool. Mostly because of poor decisions I've made; but sometimes becuase life just sucks. But now, things are finally looking up and I have plenty I can see I should be thankful for so here we go.

First of all my family. They've been there for me through everything I've gone through in my life. They've been supportive but also held me accountable for all my shit.
My parents have always been there to support me when I needed it. Financially, emtionally, spiritually, whatever I've needed they've given it to me in just the way I've needed it. They've bailed me out when they needed to; and let me deal with the consequences of my actions when I needed a lesson. My dad taught me my work ethic. I don't live it quite the way he does but from him I learned that I have a responsibility to work and work hard; even if I don't like my job. And if I don't like my job all I have to do is work hard and get a better one. From my mom I've learned unconditional love and support. She has such a heart for people in need. No matter what I've done she's loved and supported me and has always encouraged me to live the life I've always wanted.

My brothers have also always been amazing. Andrew is one of the coolest and most together guys I have ever met in my life. His passion for God and youth is inspiring to everyone who meets him and even though he's my little brother I want to be just like him when I grow up. And Eric is one of the coolest cats I know. He's been through more crap than me; again a lot of it is choices he's made but he's always got a positive attitude and he loves his boys like no father I've met before.

And my sister. I really don't know what I can say about that woman. She's so strong. She suffered the biggest lost I think anyone can suffer; losing a child. But her strength and faith never waivered. She runs her house and family like no other I've ever seen before. If you want to know how to live your life the right way; go have a chat with my big sister and learn from the master!

And my lil monster Alina. What an amazing adventure my life has been the past 9 years. 9 YEARS!!!!!! I can't believe it. It hasn't been perfect; I haven't been perfect. I wish she could be with me everyday and she should have been with me more days than she has been; but all I can do is look to the future. She's so smart and funny and beautiful and amazing and I'm gonna be in so much trouble in a few years when she's old enough for boys to start noticing her. I just pray she learns from me what she can on how to be a good person and a strong woman.

And what else is there. I have a job. I don't always love it; but it's a start towards the career I want and as much as I complain it's a lot of fun. I have a car. I have a place to live. I eat everyday. I can watch tv and surf the internet. I have a cell phone. I don't lack anything in my life except the extravagant, ridiculous things everyone dreams about. I have everything I need; which leads me to the biggest thing I am currently thankful for.

I have met the love of my life and I have never been happier! Dusti is the most amazing woman I've ever met in my entire life. So strong, smart, funny, witty, beautiful, sexy; everything anyone could ever want in a woman. And she's all mine! I wasn't expecting to meet anyone anytime soon. I had pretty much nothing and didn't want to get involved with anyone until I had my life figured out. But we met and she saw something in me and even though I was interested but kept trying to tell her I wasn't worth her time; she didn't give up on me. And now we're engaged and I have to admit that she was right. She's absolutley perfect for me in every way. She loves all the dorky things I do. We can talk for hours about serious things or ridiculous, silly things. We can sit and do nothing; just be close to each other. We can go out and look at antiques or old records or eat or do pretty much everything and have a good time. For whatever reason she loves me; and I will do everything I can to make sure that never changes.

Her family is amazing too. Her kids are amazing. Smart and beautiful. Such wonderful kids with so much potential. I feel priviliged to have the opportunity to have a part in raising them to be the man and woman they are capable of becoming. Her sisters are absolutely fabulous. Lacie is the ultimate family woman. She works hard but always seems to have time to do fun things with her two girls who are absoutely adorable. And she has an awesome husband (Lacie, not Dusti) who also loves Dr. Who and other fantastic BBC America shows and is an all around cool guy. Her sister Misty is also fabulous. I love going in to the spa and hanging out when she's around. So funny and sweet. Her whole family has made me feel welcome. I instantly felt accepted and loved.

So this has been a super long post, sorry about that. I just have so much to be thankful for this year! Thanks for sticking with me if you've read this far. I could go on and on about how fantastic my life has become the past year but I think I've bragged enough.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I know the holidays are tough times for some people; but look around, there's always something to be thankful for!

Happy Anniversary!!! Well...sort of.

One year ago today my cousin got married. He's a lucky guy, his wife is one of the coolest ladies I've met and I'm happy for them both. But I definitely had a better day than them. Because that was the day I met this girl.

My life wasn't the greatest. I was pretty much lost and doing nothing but working and drinking. And then she came along. I kept trying to tell her to stay away from me; that I wasn't worth getting to know cause she would just be disappointed. But thank God, she wouldn't listen to me. And now I am happy, truly happy, for the first time in as long as I can remember. I have hope for myself and my future. I have a plan for my life and couldn't be more excited about what the future holds for us.

She is absolutely perfect for me in every way. Things haven't been perfect; they never are. But they're better than I have ever imagined they could be for me.

And so we celebrated by doint two of the things we love best; eating way too much food and going to antique/thrift stores all day. And now we're gonna get all snuggly on the couch and watch the new Walking Dead in an hour. I love my life and I love my fantabulous and amazing fiance!!

I'm good at drinking; not at writing.

So NaNo has been a bust but not a total loss. I just haven't been able to sit down and write, write, write. I only have about 1000 words so I'm juuuuuuuust a little bit behind. But I've definitely learned a lot. Writing something that large is not something I can just sit down and do; I need a plan. An outline or something. Lots of preparation so I have an idea of where the story is going and what I want to say. I like the idea I have for the story; hopefully I'll be able to keep going with it and finish it sometime.

And apparently I have a drinking problem. I don't drink all the time; I don't crave alcohol and get all cranky or whatever if I don't drink. But when I am drinking, if I have lots of it available, I just don't stop. I seem to not have any self control. I should probably work on that.

My birthday is in two weeks. I'm gonna be thirty. I still don't know exactly how I feel about that. I still feel like I've wasted a lot of time just drifting and not working towards anything. But I've also never felt better about my life. I'm finally happy and have a plan. I suppose I just need to keep telling myself I'm really not that old and I still have plenty of time to fulfill the dreams I have for me and my family.

And that's about all for now I suppose. Excited for Thanksgiving next week. Get to see the fam and eat lots of fantastic food!